“Are you the one who is to come, or should we expect someone else?”
Luke 7:19
"Everything is possible for the one who believes.” Mark 9:23
"I do believe; help my unbelief!"
Mark 9:24
Think about how many times we see Jesus in the gospels saying to the disciples, "oh you of little faith, why do you doubt?"
Whatever our situation, as believers we're expected to respond with faith in Christ's divine power. And yet we might doubt for a variety of reasons. Our doubts are a reflection of some aspect of our faith experience in any given situations. Some may be doubtful when faced with a supernatural reality like Peter did while walking on water. And others may question the order of things in the face of personal tragedies or trials. And still others doubt the wellness and security of their own soul, typically having to do with a struggle they have with reoccurring sin. And it's not lost on me that even Jesus had to face the struggle we all share with questions about the circumstances surrounding us.
One example people look at to suggest that even Jesus had doubts is that moment when Jesus cried out in anguish from the cross...
‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?'” (Matthew 27:45-46)
...but did he doubt? Did he lose faith? No of course not. And as a matter of fact the psalm Jesus was quoting when he said these words continues with the believer expressing and affirming his faith in the power of the divine will.
But Mike, earlier you said Jesus doubted?
Right. He did. In the same way we all do. He expressed doubts about the immediate impact of the situation in very human terms. But the thing you MUST see in all this is that doubts are not necessarily about unbelief. Jesus never expressed unbelief. He was expressing his heartbreak and aloneness in that moment of separation from the Father as all the sins of humanity were put on him. And right next to him was a new believer, a newly saved soul, experiencing the same torture, but doubting a little bit in that he asked Christ to remember him when he comes into his kingdom. He doubted his own soul would see heaven. For a variety of reasons he felt uncertain that Christ could or would save him. While in that excruciating and mind-numbing torment of the cross, the penitent thief heard the Spirit of God call him. While the disciples were abandoning Jesus, this penitent thief expressed faith when he rebuked his companion robber, "Don't you fear God?" In that statement we know that he knows, he believes, he believes in the power of God, and knows his own sinful situation. In fact this faith is greater than many even today, because he's not all wrapped up in the rejection of the idea that one should fear God. He obviously understands that God is holy and righteous, and he is not. And so he rebukes the devil working in his companion's mocking words. And then he turns to Jesus in faith, and in a kind of doubt. He asks, 'Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.' That's an expression of faith in the reality that Christ Jesus is the divine king of the universe, and at the same time the thief is doubting that Jesus should remember him. He takes a risk, asks the big ask, and shows great faith in that request. You could say he had nothing to lose. Probably true, but he took a leap of faith, and Jesus immediately reassured him. Time was up, death was almost done with them both. No time for faltering doubts.
Peter jumped out of that boat in faith, but had doubts. John the Baptist went to prison and eventually the executioner's sword in faith, but had doubts. John and the rest were with Jesus at his arrest, in faith they were there, even as they ran off in fear. No doubt all the disciples had a myriad of doubts running through their minds as they ran through the olive trees. Judas, in faith, and in doubts, was attempting to make his Messiah take control of things in the way he felt he should when he gave him over to the temple authorities. And Thomas was eventually there, in faith, with the disciples, even as he doubted everything he heard about the resurrection.
Each was a believer. This thing about doubts isn't about unbelievers. In each instance there's a response to some question in their minds. These questions can be about all sorts of things; God's power, God's will, God's justice, God's love for them. And often it's just about the weakness of the person of faith and their own power, or sense of justice. They question their own will and love for God. Peter doubted Christ could really forgive him, not because he didn't have faith in Christ's forgiveness, but because he doubted that he would forgive himself if the roles were reversed. John the Baptist had questions about what was going on, he had incomplete information and needed some reassurance. His faith was intact, but "what's the plan God?"
And likewise it's this way for most of us. We have incomplete information. We have our revelation data and doctrines to help instruct us. We have our conversion, the Spirit infused new heart and regenerated soul to animate our faith. And life has its questions. Doubt rises when we can't square our expectations with our experiences. So doubt is an aspect of faith. The question is whether it's role in faith is a positive or negative aspect.
Jesus says, "All things are possible to him who believes"
And so we believe.
And then stuff happens, just like it did when we didn't believe.
What is that? It's doubt.
Doubt for a person of faith is having the wrong expectations. It means that we've gone beyond the point of faith. We're told that the gain for the one who has faith is eternal life. We're not told we MUST experience our best life now. We might experience blessings, I know I have, I've gone through the trials, and I've been blessed. The Lord truly does provide. And the lessons I've learned along the way has given me peace in the tough times. We're told to be content in our afflictions. "I don't know…but God does." Trust in the One who knows. And I do. Sometimes I get to doubting myself and my godliness. I'm about as sinful as it gets at times. And so I think about the curse of leaven and my abiding faith. But none of my self-loathing shakes my faith in the forgiveness of Christ and his justice. I KNOW he is king of the universe, but I doubt my own sincerity at times.
Our calling is not to pretend that we have no doubts, but to trust Jesus even with our doubts.
Jesus told the followers of John the Baptist to go and tell him that the blind see, the lame walk, and the poor hear the gospel. Jesus had to send disciples to evangelize the evangelist. Imagine that. And think about this, John was beheaded before the resurrection. Never got that Easter morning message. He didn't have half the information you and I have. But he died in faith, all his doubts satisfied.
In our lives, we people of faith are going to have to go back to the gospel over and over and over again. And review the Old Testament prophets to help us rationalize our expectations in Christ's and mankind's history, and build that faith up, erasing our doubts.
Lord Jesus, thank you for your word, and the faith that comes by it. And thank you for correcting our expectations as your Spirit brings these things into remembrance. Thank you for the scriptures that satisfies the soul unto eternity. I give you my heart and my mind, all my expectations and experiences are yours now and forever. No doubt about it.
Amen