Unclenched from Shifting Shadows
James 1:17
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change."
James 1:17 is rich with the truth about God’s character and generosity. Nothing truly good originates in us or the world apart from Him. He is the source. And the context says: Even in hardship, God remains good. The trial isn’t the gift, but the wisdom, endurance, and refinement that comes through it can be. He doesn’t change. His gifts keep coming. His purpose holds true.
He is, "The Father of lights"
Unlike the shifting shadows cast by the sun or moon, God is constant. His goodness doesn’t flicker. His love doesn’t waver. You can trust His character today, tomorrow, forever.
Not just a light, but the Father of all lights. No inconsistency. No mood swing. No hidden agenda. He doesn’t give with one hand and take with the other. His gifts are pure, complete, and always aligned with His unchanging purpose. And because He never changes, we can rest in that truth.
Honest question: why do so many people who claim faith still feel unsteady in their hearts?
One thing I've observed, they confuse God’s silence or discipline with abandonment.
Hebrews 12:6
"For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and chastises every son whom he receives."
When prayers seem to go unanswered or correction comes, the enemy whispers, "If God loved you, He’d fix this now."
Another thing that happens is they measure God’s love by their performance.
Romans 5:8
"but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
Legalism creeps in: "I sinned again, He must be disappointed."
They get to thinking this way because that's how they would judge someone like them. They aren't just in the same way God is in their condemnation of themselves. His love isn’t earned; it’s given. Feelings of unworthiness don’t cancel the cross.
I've also seen that they’ve been wounded by others and are conflating them with God's love. Earthly dads (or leaders) who were inconsistent, harsh, or absent leave scars. And they have a difficult time harmonizing God's love with the love they've experienced or given. For them it’s hard to trust a heavenly Father when the word "father" carries pain.
Psalm 27:10
"For my father and my mother have forsaken me, but the Lord will take me in."
Another reason is they never rest in grace long enough to know it deep down in their spirit. They instead focus on the storm, not the Anchor. And from within that unsettled state Satan targets their assurance.
The accuser’s favorite lie: "You’re not really His."
From this position many believers stay in "striving" mode; serving, studying, repenting, but rarely receiving. Peter walked on water until he looked at the waves. The mind replays the doubts, "What if God lets me down?"
But 1 John 3:1 counters: "See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are."
And so it seems to me that the root of insecurity in faith is almost always a distortion of the Father’s heart.
Silence = abandonment
Sin = disqualification
Human failure = God’s failure
Striving = earning
Storms = evidence against His love
It's a very cynical perspective from the start.
They’ve believed a lie about how God sees them in the moment of their weakness.
The enemy doesn’t just say, "God doesn’t love you."
He says, "God loves the version of you that performs, obeys, and has it together. The real you? The tired, doubting, failing you? That one’s on thin ice."
That’s the lie.
It’s not just doubt.
It’s doubt with an attitude.
A preemptive distrust.
A heart that says, "I’ll believe He loves me…but only if He proves it on my own terms."
It starts out small:
A prayer unanswered → "He doesn’t care." Something bad happens, someone is lost, somebody dies. God failed to show up.
A failure exposed → "He’s ashamed of me." He didn't take that sin away from them, He didn't rescue them from themselves.
A season of silence → "He’s gone." They loved their relationship, but now it seems onesided.
All this hardens into a lens:
"God is like people; capricious, conditional, easily disappointed."
But the truth is, there is no fine print. No bait-and-switch. No love that flickers when you fail.
The gospel says the opposite:
The real you, the broken, weary, sin-stained you, was the one Jesus came for, bled for, and rose for.
"It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."
— Mark 2:17
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
— 2 Corinthians 12:9
God is not waiting for you to become more lovable. He loves you fully, now, in this breath, in this mess, in this doubt. And He is committed; by covenant, by blood, by His unchanging nature, to finish the good work He began in you (Philippians 1:6).
Cynicism says:
"If it’s too good to be true, it probably is."
Grace says:
"It is too good to be true, and it’s still true."
The cure isn’t more effort. It’s exposure, letting the light in. Like a seed breaking open in soil, cynicism softens when it’s held by truth, soaked in presence, spoken to by love.
So here’s a quiet invitation:
Think about one place where cynicism has guarded your heart.
Then speak this over it, out loud if you can:
"Father of lights,
You do not change.
You do not leave.
You do not love in shadows.
I receive Your love, not because I deserve it, but because You are good."
Friends, cynicism is a lie, it's an excuse, it's a curse we put on our own lives. Today, in this lesson, you can see clearly now.
Now...will you let Him see you?
Not the polished version.
The real one.
The one cynicism tried to hide.
Here's the good news, He’s already looking, with delight.
Zephaniah 3:17
"The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing."
Not tolerance.
Not reluctant acceptance.
Loud. Singing. Delight.
Let Him sing.
Don’t argue.
Don’t explain.
Don’t perform.
Just listen.
Be honest. What's truly holding you back is that God wants vulnerability from you. The real risk is vulnerability. It's not frightening that He’ll leave, but that He’ll stay, and love you anyway. That’s terrifying to the cynic. But it’s freedom to the child of God.
In a world armored by cynicism, vulnerability is God’s own condition. He puts Himself out there, vulnerable, knowing full well that His creation will reject Him. He comes in vulnerability to us; Jesus was exposed, nailed, abandoned…and rising. It's a fall upwards, yes, but vulnerability isn’t optional if your hope is love and truth. The Father of lights invites us to fall upward, to let the shadows of our small self die so the true self can breathe in life everlasting.
Our spiritual journey is to go from ego to True Self, and vulnerability is our bridge.
Q: "Yeah, but how do you explain why God hasn't done...?"
A: God comes to us disguised as our problems.
James 1:2-4
"Consider it pure joy…whenever you face trials…because the testing of your faith produces perseverance."
It’s not about fixing your mess. It’s about offering it.
The unanswered prayer, the exposed failure, the silent season, it's all gifts given back to the Giver. And in that offering? Transformation. The sacred wound becomes the source of light.
Prayer:
Father of lights,
I descend into my not-enough.
Meet me in the falling.
Let Your unchanging love be the ground that catches me.
In Jesus' Holy name. Amen.