Spent the day inside the prison "Walking Through The Psalms" with the inside Kairos community. We started the day with Psalm 13 and 22. Followed that up with Psalm 46 and 52. Then moved on into a reflection on Psalm 23. And finally finished the afternoon with an inside testimony.
With Psalm 13 and 22 we set a strong foundation. The honest lament, the raw "How long?" and the forsaken cry that Jesus Himself took up on his cross. We started there with men who know isolation, abandonment, and the weight of consequence that creates real space for the gospel to land. The discussions landed on a reversal of our point-of-view regarding the "how long?" The real question not asked is "how long before we finally understand what God's trying to do in this moment?"
The natural human posture is "How long until You change my circumstances?" The inside testimony really touched on this as he shared how he went through a very difficult time when he felt like God wasn't interested or wanted to be available as he continued to respond to life's challenges. The men there today landed somewhere deeper. They asked "How long until we see what You are already doing in these circumstances?" And their fellow resident shared that he did finally reaffirm God's work in his circumstances.
This is not resignation. It’s a shift from demanding relief to seeking better perception. And in the prison context; where time stretches, isolation presses in hard, and consequence is concrete, that reorientation is costly and grace-soaked. It turns the lament from accusation into apprenticeship. The "how long" is no longer primarily about the length of the trials; it becomes more about the length of our blindness to the work God is performing through the trial.
It's like when Jesus was on the cross and he took up that lament. It wasn't that he felt like the father had forgotten him or that He wasn't even there for him; it was more the fact that he had accomplished what the Father sent him to do. And it was finished, so it was really more like a question of "I've done everything that you asked, how much longer do I need to do this?" And of course in the next breath, he gave up his spirit and it was finished. At no point was the Father absent. There was no abandonment. No separation. In fact, the two couldn't be any closer than in that moment when Jesus fulfilled everything that his Father required of him.
The cry of forsakenness was real, yet the larger story was the Father’s redemptive purpose unfolding in that very moment. Jesus was begotten for this moment. The Good Shepherd was where He was meant to be. His Father wasn't absent and not caught off guard in that moment. Nobody was surprised or confused. The Trinity was not ruptured. Jesus was doing the will of the One who sent Him, and the work was being accomplished.
Yes, the One who knew no sin was made to be sin for us. And he lived it to the extreme. In that judicial and relational moment, He entered into the God-forsakenness that our sin deserves. But He wanted it. He was there for this. Pain, scars, and all the brokenness of sin. This is what He was meant to do. The Son was not dragged to the cross against His will. He set His face toward Jerusalem.
He spoke of the baptism He still had to undergo. He said no one takes His life from Him; He lays it down of His own accord. So the cry is not the protest of a reluctant victim. It is the real experience of the willing Sin-Bearer entering the God-forsakenness that belonged to us.
For the men inside, "how long" is already laid out for them. They know exactly how long they will have to deal with in everything. Others control that reality for them. The sentence is written. The schedule is imposed. Others hold the keys and the calendar. They do not get to bargain with the duration the way people outside often do. So the question for them is, "what is God doing in this fixed span?"
When the external timeline is non-negotiable, the only real movement available is internal; in the mind and heart, from accusation to apprenticeship, from demanding relief to seeking insight.
And so the Shepherd leads the way. He provides the way and prepares the comforts along the way. He uplifts and anoints them with His Spirit.
Into that narrow, constrained place the Shepherd comes. He does not first lengthen or shorten the path. He leads on it. He provides what is needed for the walking. He prepares the table and the comforts in the presence of what still remains hard. He works with what you give him. Even while the walls stay where they are and the days remain numbered by another’s hand, the Shepherd is there. The same men who know isolation and the weight of a fixed sentence are invited to discover that the Shepherd is already on the path with them, supplying what the path itself cannot give. He does not wait for the walls to move or the sentence to shorten before He begins. He instead anoints what is still incomplete. The Shepherd meets them in the narrow place and begins with whatever they are able to place in His hand.
Looking forward to seeing what tomorrow brings as we continue to walk through the Psalms.
Pray for this Kairos time.